<3 I am over crying because of you. I am a strong and beautiful girl; any other guy I find should be grateful to have me, and I will be very appreciative to have him. That’s who I am; I actually enjoy being with someone, unlike you. The sad truth is: I know everything about you; I know all of the lies that you told to impress your friends. I know all of your insecurities and that really, you are the most self-conscious person I have ever met. But the saddest part is, you know everything about me, too. I can’t ever hide from you because you are the one person that I can tell anything to and not worry about being judged. Over the past year and a half, you have become me very best friend. I would love to keep in touch with you over the years so I can talk to you about everything. I know that I have to wait until the “love” has gone away though. Isn’t it funny how you can love someone that hurt you so badly? I don’t understand my heart; I know that I should get over you, but it’s hard to forget everything that happened between us.
Someday, I’ll have the courage to ask “Why?” and I won’t be afraid of the answer because I will be happy again. It won’t be the happy I am now where I put on a fake smile at school to show everyone that I can handle it, and it won’t be the kind of happy where I dress up really nice to try to impress you because I will know that I don’t need your approval anymore. I wish I had known that I didn’t need to do everything to try to please you. I wish I hadn’t believed everything you said because I wish I had known it would all be a lie. And because of everything you told me and everything I’ve been thinking, everything is jumbled for me. I just want to have my real life back. I know that one day, I’ll look back at this break up and be grateful, but I need time to realize the happiness it will bring me. <3 Thanks for listening, and remember to not judge because you never know if their smile is real or fake. Life is hard.